One of my favorite verses in the word is Psalm 85:10 Love and faithfulness meet together; righteousness and peace kiss each other. I grasp whole heartily and with open arms the role that God has designed for me as a woman. I realize that this makesme quite different from the normal worldly woman and I am truly satisfied with being contrary to the accepted norm. I truly believe that God's word is truth and each day I give everything I have to live my life accordingly. I do not want to think, act, or be anything like the world expects a woman to be. I desire and long for a man who understands God's intended roles for a man and woman. I desire a Godly man who understands that each day is a learning experience for me and that God is still shaping me. For him to do this it would require a Godly type of grace and optimism that I have yet to find a man to embrace. I am loyal, supportive, funny, never meet a stranger, smile a lot, friendly, encouraging, kind, expect honesty, and my daily walk with the Lord is tight. :) But you will need to decide this for yourself! lol. . . I am not here for myself. I am here for the Lord to use as he sees fit. I do enjoy my time on this earth and look forward to the future as well as going home. But he has me here for some reason. Each time I am knocked down I get up and move forward. I live for eternity with God not happiness or acceptance with the world. God is everything to me. He is my breath, my hope, my peace, my life, my love, my strength, my compassion, my laughter and joy. I can not do anything with out him but all things in Him. He has given me grace, love, compassion, patience and joy among so many other and deeper emotional and spiritual gifts. Working out and eating right. I have come from a very painful past that I have completely dealt with (I am so happy that I can say that now!!). Unfortunately dealing with my sin from my past has and will take a while. I have lost 250 pounds with Christ and I am continuing to lose more. I do not have a lot of weight left to loose. I can do all things through Christ but having a supporter and friend to encourage me on this journey would be a gift from God. I have not had a friend like that in about 4 years. I desire to be where God wants me, where he designed me physically and realize that I allowed myself to get out of his will and design because I chose food over him. If you can encourage me, support me and accept me where I am KNOWING it is not where God wants me to be and that I will not be here long, because God wants me to move forward then I welcome your friendship. I am deeply weary of being judged and ridiculed for my past sin. I do not judge others for theirs and for some sad reason this area (being overweight) is an area without grace or compassion from the optimistic realist or judgemental man.