I have been married 2x and 2x very, very hurt. To try again is almost more than worth trying. I guess this is basically an experiment to see what happens. I really don't think there is anyone else out there for me. What hurts the most is I will never have a 25th wedding anniversiry. My name is differnt then my kids. My kids are all grown and working on families of their own. Being a 3xc loser is my greatest fear and I'm not sure I even want to try but it would be nice to at least have a friend to spend time with that who will think that I am someone really speical and worth investing more then a pass thought, someone who is interest in more than just theirself and what is in it for them.