I tried and tried to write and know I have a lot to say . just know this I beleive in the trio , I don;t know if your the one for me lets talk I beleive everything can be a sin if you over do it , I do not belive any one should be put down. we all have our own trials I wait and listen to god , he is my paycheck , he is my father , he left software for me to study the bible he made it so easy , I just don;t understand how its so hard for others to get there, I love to laugh and make others feel good about themsleves , love and compassion are too short in this world , lets not lie to one another, the time is short and at hand my main purpose is to serve god , it keeps me sane, I am a romantic , I love to surprise and be surprised, I love new islands, new advetnures, and try to make it happen , I beleive my soul mate should want the same , I am sometimes called kat , I have aqquired this name threw my carvings with a chainsaw, I love art and believe god is the biggest one, I do not like to argue about he bible, but seek the truth , I do not condemm others for thier short comings , I loved my husband and still do, but he chooses the world;s sin and cannot keep from it , we both decided he wants his way, I want mine , mine being everything that is told by god, his is his family and thier sinful ways , I have tried to keep him from it and I lost him to it, he tried hard to leave it , but I was his strength and could not take his mental abusiveness any more, it hurt me deeply , and we felt it better to separate then to keep on destroying each other , he has an addiction I could not fight , he could not leave , I will always care for him because we have a buetiful daughter toeghter , but I will not go back to him in any manner that would destroy my next relationship and it will have to be a man of equal yolk , I love gardening , animals but not in the house , I beleive people come before anything , I love to paint and make things new , I love to sing I sing all day long I love my grandchildren , from another marraige , life is short I feel like time is running out god said enjoy this life and make the most of it and I intend too , I married my husband on the hopes of love and changing him and he did. he knows god and loves god , but he cannot leave sin. the drink , I really feel sorry for him and I am still praying somehow he can change for that speacial someone he wants , I just knew it was never really me , but god loves me and him and no matter what I am human and I desire to be with someone for the rest of my life on this earth , lets talk can't tell unless we chat lol also I will chat with anyone who needs advise in the matters of relationships , don;t forget just love them , and pray for them , paul says let them go if they choose so . hey life goes on no matter what age you are . so do it!!