I don't really know what to say. This has just been a bad month. My boyfriend has confessed that he has depression. Depending on the day- we are together or he is a stranger. I love him and he is my best friend but his pushing me away hurt. It killsme that he placed our courtship on hold- saying that he had to get better before he could continue.
I don't know what to beleive. Trying to be supportive, giving him space while still sharing my love & friendship. Not an easy situation: this unknown status of our relationship breaks my hearts. Are we together or not- I don't know. But doesn't matter really since I would never leave him when he is this ill. Even if I am only a friend, I want him to get better!(No, I am NOT interested in dating. So, please don't email about that. )
Despite our problems I love him and I want to spend my life with him. I will give everything that I can to fix our relationship. . but right now he can't concern himself with me or us. . he has to focus on his well-being first. He can't to love himself and God before he can love me.