I am a "bondslave" to Jesus Christ! I try at all times to live by the words that proceed from the mouth of God! I'm called to full time evangelism/prophetic ministry. I play drums and percussion for different ministries. Every where I go I try toshare the gospel with others and lead people to Christ for salvation, healing and discipleship. I have been born again for over 11 yrs. I have spent 1000's of hours studying scripture. I'm very fit physically and excercise is part of my lifestyle. I try to take good care of myself and want my future spouse to have exceedingly and abundanty over and above all she could every ask or think in a husband. I am obviously a single parent and I love my daughter and live before her in holiness and purity. I donot compromise the word of God or who I am in Christ and I would want my first kiss with my beloved to be on the altar. I am divorced on biblical grounds and my ex wife committed adultery which has been proven and she openly admits to. My divorce decree is on the grounds of adultery, and she never even showed up to court.
I have included part of a letter I recently wrote to a friend in Bejing China. it describes what I believe is a sad state of relational dynamics that goes on between men and women inside and outside the body of Christ. Warning it is lenghty and you may be held accountable by the Lord for what you read next. I believe these issues need to be discussed and uncovered so that the Bride of Christ can repent, shake off the dust of sin and arise victorious in Christ, as we learn to renew our minds to love eachother as true disciples of the Lord Jesus Christ, as He would have us love eachother as brothers and sisters in His kingdom. I hope the following message will stir you up by the Holy Spirit of the living God to live Holy and upright in Him, and to prepare youself for the covenant mate of promise that the Lord is preparing you for, and likewise preparing for you! I was asked the question if I have found my ideal woman yet; here is my heartfelt response. I have not yet met a woman that is all of what I'm asking our Father for in a covenant wife of promise. I sometimes get very discouraged and frustrated about it and I don't know if you would understand not having been married before. I made my covenant with my ex wife and the Lord forever in my heart. My goal and desire was to raise godly children to love God with all their heart mind soul and Spirit. To love my wife and to live our lives together serving Him and winning millions of people to Jesus for salvation, healing and wholeness and discipleship. I have, I believe, forgiven my ex wife for committing adultery . It was a devastating thing that we went through and it is only by the grace of God that I didn't die going through it because I felt many times that the pain was soo bad I would have rather had the Lord kill me and take me home than to endure that type of excruciating pain any longer. However I am now in a place of being without a wife in a country that is rather perverse and sexually saturated just about every where you go. Women in America ( that don't truly love and have relationship with Jesus Christ) have a mindset that they can walk around with hardly any clothing on and everywhere you go there are images of women on billboards, tv, and people who are trying to use their God given beauty to control and manipulate men for their money and power. With great physical beauty comes a great Spiritual responsibility!
The men in this country(that don't truly love Jesus Christ, or have a proper relationship with Him) have made "idols" out of beautiful woman, and are trying to use their power and money to get sex from woman. It is a vicious cycle, and a two edge sword that continues in a secular society that has no understanding of what God wants relationships and marriage to be about. And is fueled by demonic spirits of pride, lust, and idolatry, and covetousness, commonly characterized as a "Jezebel" spirit written about in 1 Kings 18:- 19. It is frustrating to me because I do love the Lord with all my heart. I want to live by the words of Holy Scripture and having sex before marriage is a sin that if un repented of, would condemn a person's eternal spirit to hell. If two people really love each other with the unconditional selfless agape love of Jesus Christ, then they will not partake of behavior that could send someone to hell forever. That is not the love of Christ, it is a selfish act of idolatry which is Spiritual adultery against a Holy and loving God who demonstrated that love perfectly by shedding His blood on the cross, for the very sins that people call "loving" one another. How sick and deluded and deceived many of us have become. And unfortunately this behavior continues to be done by many people who proclaim that they have Jesus as their Lord and Savior. The Scriptures are very clear about this type of behavior, and if it continues un repented of and without any godly sorrow; or chastening from the Lord, the chances are very high that even those that would say they are followers of Jesus are not truly saved at all. I believe that this relational dynamic goes back all the way to Genesis 3:16 in the fall of Adam and Eve. He shall bruise your head, ?And you shall bruise His heel. " ?16 To the woman He said:?"I will greatly multiply your sorrow and your conception;?In pain you shall bring forth children;?Your desire shall be for your husband, ?And he shall rule over you. " ?17 Then to Adam He said, "Because you have heeded the voice of your wife, and have eaten from the tree of which I commanded you, saying, 'You shall not eat of it':?"Cursed is the ground for your sake;?In toil you shall eat of it ?All the days of your life. ?18 Both thorns and thistles it shall bring forth for you, ?And you shall eat the herb of the field. ?19 In the sweat of your face you shall eat bread ?Till you return to the ground, ?For out of it you were taken;?For dust you are, ?And to dust you shall return. " ?20 And Adam called his wife's name Eve, because she was the mother of all living. ?21 Also for Adam and his wife the LORD God made tunics of skin, and clothed them. ?22 Then the LORD God said, "Behold, the man has become like one of Us, to know good and evil. And now, lest he put out his hand and take also of the tree of life, and eat, and live forever" ? 23 therefore the LORD God sent him out of the garden of Eden to till the ground from which he was taken. 24 So He drove out the man; and He placed cherubim at the east of the garden of Eden, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to guard the way to the tree of life. ?? 16 Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and to thy husband, thy desire shall be and he shall rule over thee. ? 413 802 559 7235 7235 6093 2032 6089 3205 1121 413 376 8669 9999 1931 4910 ? ?OT:8669 teshuwqah (tesh-oo-kaw'); from OT:7783 in the original sense of stretching out after; a longing:??KJV - desire. ?OT:7783 shuwq (shook); a primitive root; to run after or over, i. e. overflow:??KJV - overflow, water.
The numbers above are from Strong's exhaustive concordance from the original Hebrew language of this verse. From all the studying that I have done about this subject I believe that for a woman that has not the Holy Spirit nor a true love for Jesus, her fleshly carnal desire will be to try to use whatever she can to manipulate and control, or rebel against her husband. And why wouldn't she. The scripture says that every sin is a sin unto the Lord, and if someone doesn't know how to love the Lord, or knows not the love of the Lord through His forgiveness and grace, If then, they will sin and rebel against God Almighty, why wouldn't they sin and rebel against there husbands? Please don't get me wrong. Men have there issues also, and there is never just cause for a man to treat a woman as a piece of property, or some subservient individual who is only there to satisfy his needs. However if a woman is truly in love with Christ, and is striving everyday to love and obey the word of God, then she shouldn't have a problem obeying the scriptures that say a wife is to submit herself to her husband as unto the Lord in all things. It is really an issue of trusting in the Lord, and also in her husband. And a man is instructed to love his wife as Christ loves the church. Try taking that one on and really living that out. That is the most selfless act of love a man can do for his wife, and without the empowerment of the Holy Spirit it is an impossible task for any man. ?So I want to "play by the rules, " of scripture. My desire is to be remarried and for that marriage to be glorifying to the Lord. I would like to marry someone who has the desire to try to win the whole world for Jesus. I also would like to marry a woman who is very fit and attractive. So far I find that even in the American church, that the mindset of many of the woman that are beautiful, fit and attractive, is one that many think and act as though they don't need to have a man, or could care less if they are married or not. They have their looks, their careers, and if they want children many will forgo the inevitable circumstances and repercussions of sin, and have children out of wedlock, by having an illicit sexual relationship so they can have what they want now, and think that they can just " repent, and God will just forgive me". I have literally heard many women that say these types of statements, and also say that they are disciples of Jesus Christ!!!! I know of woman that are willing to circumvent the whole blessing and covenant of biblical marriage, and go and have invitro fertilization, and take the life giving seed of someone they are not in a lifelong covenant with, and might not even know who that person is, or what kind of sin issues are in that persons life, and then join their life and flesh as one with that person's seed just to create a child and satisfy their emotional and physical needs outside the covenant and boundaries Almighty God has established through the covenant of marriage. In Malachi 2:10-17 we read:
10 Treachery of Infidelity
?Have we not all one Father??Has not one God created us??Why do we deal treacherously with one another ?By profaning the covenant of the fathers? ?11 Judah has dealt treacherously, ?And an abomination has been committed in Israel and in Jerusalem, ?For Judah has profaned ?The LORD's holy institution which He loves:?He has married the daughter of a foreign god. ?12 May the LORD cut off from the tents of Jacob?The man who does this, being awake and aware, ?Yet who brings an offering to the LORD of hosts! ?13 And this is the second thing you do:?You cover the altar of the LORD with tears, ?With weeping and crying;?So He does not regard the offering anymore, ?Nor receive it with goodwill from your hands. ?14 Yet you say, "For what reason?"?Because the LORD has been witness ?Between you and the wife of your youth, ?With whom you have dealt treacherously;?Yet she is your companion ?And your wife by covenant. ?15 But did He not make them one, ?Having a remnant of the Spirit??And why one??He seeks godly offspring. ?Therefore take heed to your spirit, ?And let none deal treacherously with the wife of his youth. ?16 "For the LORD God of Israel says ?That He hates divorce, ?For it covers one's garment with violence, "?Says the LORD of hosts. ?"Therefore take heed to your spirit, ?That you do not deal treacherously. " ?17 You have wearied the LORD with your words;?Yet you say, ?"In what way have we wearied Him?"?In that you say, ?"Everyone who does evil ?Is good in the sight of the LORD, ?And He delights in them, "?Or, "Where is the God of justice?"In verse 15 God states that He made them( the man and the woman) one because He wants them( together as man and wife to have a family) to have Godly offspring. The first commandment that the Lord gave Adam and Eve was to be fruitful and to multiply, to fill the earth and to subdue it. This meant together as man and wife. Not divorced, or single parent families or those living in fornication and adultery, or those who selfishly play God at the expense of fertilized human embryos( conceived children outside the womb being introduced into a woman's uterus at the knowing expense that three out of four of those lives will not be born at the expense of one or possibly more being born so that people can have their own way and what they want as opposed to what God wants for their lives. I don't think that is man's prerogative but God's to start or end life inside or outside the womb, if it is being done against the word of God's instruction.
Obviously these are unbiblical mindsets when it is written in scripture that it is not right(good) for man to be alone. ?18 And the LORD God said, "It is not good that man should be alone; I will make him a helper comparable to him. " 19 Out of the ground the LORD God formed every beast of the field and every bird of the air, and brought them to Adam to see what he would call them. And whatever Adam called each living creature, that was its name. 20 So Adam gave names to all cattle, to the birds of the air, and to every beast of the field. But for Adam there was not found a helper comparable to him. ?21 And the LORD God caused a deep sleep to fall on Adam, and he slept; and He took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh in its place. 22 Then the rib which the LORD God had taken from man He made into a woman, and He brought her to the man. ?23 And Adam said:?"This is now bone of my bones ?And flesh of my flesh;?She shall be called Woman, ?Because she was taken out of Man. " ?24 Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and they shall become one flesh. ?25 And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.
If the scriptures tell us that Almighty God who created woman for man in the first place, that it is not good for the man to be alone, and then created the woman for the man out of the man, why would a woman( who wants to live in agreement with he Word of God), then act as though she could care less if she fulfilled the "normative" calling for a woman to be the wife to a man? Well I believe the answer is in Genesis 3:16, as well as issues of pride, idolatry, covetousness, manipulation, and rebellion, many others. Oh I won't leave the men out who are living in the lust of their flesh, and do not have any understanding of what it means to love a woman as Christ loved the church, but seek only to satisfy their carnal sexual desires to have a beautiful woman that they can control and manipulate for their own gain. This is not what God intended at all for marriage and relationships and the men that have made idols out of woman and treat them as sexual conquests instead of children of the most high will spend an eternity in hell wishing they had loved the Lord more than the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of their lives. That being said so you know hopefully that the desire of my heart is to be for my beloved exceedingly and abundantly over and above all she could ever ask or think in a covenant husband. I don't think I am the best looking guy around, yet I try to take very good care of myself, I exercise regularly lifting weights, and I try to dress nice when I'm not working on cars. I also try to be modest about how I look and present myself, because I don't want to just try to get people to notice me from the way I look. Yet I get frustrated when I have given my life to the Lord, I am keeping myself pure physically and mentally, I don't look at pornography, I have spent countless hours studying the word of God, I am a good dad to my daughter, and a very hard worker in my business. I have a God given attraction to women that have a physical beauty, and I desire only one to spend my life with. Yet also I have the self control to know that no matter how beautiful someone is on the outside, if their desire and vision from the Lord is not a passion to go into the world and preach the gospel to every living creature, and to live selflessly for Christ their family, and their husband, then a relationship like that will only end in disaster and heartbreak with broken lives of spouses and children wasting the precious time God has alotted them here on earth trying to recover from the selfish idolatrous acts of people who really don't love the Lord whether they say they do or not. I'm not perfect and I am not na?ve enough to think that I'm going to meet a "perfect" person, just the perfect one for me, and I for her. I realize also that every woman who is a child of God is beautiful and precious to God enough for Him to shed His blood for and I'm writing this from the perspective of what I personally desire overall in a covenant wife, and these are the desires of my heart which I believe God put there.
I have seen a humility in woman from other countries, that many woman here in the U. S. just don't demonstrate. Much of this as I have said we as men have done by making Idols of beautiful woman and treating them as sexual objects or worse. I guess part of my frustration is that I truly want and desire only to share my life, my love with Jesus, and my wife and family, and I had that at one time, with a beautiful wife and four beautiful step children. Hope differed makes the heart sick as it says in Proverbs. I don't like being" alone" without a wife, for I agree with God's word; it is not right for man to be alone. Yet what I desire to find Spiritually, physically, emotionally, in maturity, as well as a shared vision to reach the world with the Gospel of the Lord Jesus Christ, I have not yet found. However, I also am relying on the Lord to carry me through this time of waiting and trying to stay hopeful and expectant that just as the Lord brought Rebekkah to Issaac, and Ruth to Boaz, that He will one day hopefully soon bring my beloved covenant wife of promise, and my daughter's covenant "god mom" of promise to us for His glory in the name of Jesus Christ. So I hope it was ok to share some of heart with you as a sister in Christ. I really don't have many close sisters in the Lord that I could share my feelings, and what I believe the truth of the scripture is about some of these relationship issues.
How do the men and woman in China treat each other? Is there a noticeable difference between the way born again Christians treat each other, and those that are without Christ treat each other ?Thanks for taking the time to read all this.
Your Brother in Christ Jesus our Lord, I know that this my cause many people to be upset. We should be upset with ourselves for becoming such a weak and pitiful and lethargic, witnesses of the Lord Jesus Christ, and all that He stands for and died for. We should repent and turn from the lusts of our flesh, the lusts of our eyes, and the pride in our lives. We should turn our hearts as His body across this world, and seek Him whole heartedly to light a raging fire of obedience to Him in our hearts, that we would see His love, signs and wonders and miracles, manifested through us to those in the earth while we still have time to reach the lost that are going to hell for eternity. We are commanded by Him to preach the gospel to every living creature, and to go into all the world and preach the gospel. What is your witness of Him doing to eternally effect the sphere of influence that He has given, for His Glory? We all need to come up higher in learning to love as he loved, and to bring healing and wholeness and discipleship to those who are lost and hurting. The fear of the Lord, is the beginning of all wisdom; and this is the fear of the Lord, that you abhor what is evil.
It's all good, when it's all God! Let's take the Gospel of Jesus Christ to the nations of the world and see millions and millions of peoples saved in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ! AMEN