I'm sorry, I really don't know what to say. I've never been much of a talker, most of the time I'm quite shy and reserved. I actually opened this account since my last free trial expired, frankly there are people I wanted to contact who I couldn't other wise once it expired. So here I am.
I don't really know what to look for, or even if I should be looking. My whole life has been an ongoing conflict. It's to be expected that ideals and ambition collide from time to time, but I certainly struggle with them. I know the more fruitful the struggle, the richer the final harmony that will come about, and whatever comes of all this is from God and that is suffice.