This is really difficult for me, putting into words who I am. It's not easy to describe the "essence" of someone.
I don't want to be guilty of saying all the typical things people say like "I like long walks on the beach" even though I do. I just want this to be "real". First of all, I treasure my personal relationship with Jesus more than life itself. He is my eternal companion and best friend. I believe in the Word of God as ultimate truth and a personal guide for my life. Other than that, I have no "stamped" label on my "religion". After Jesus, my family has always been number one in my life. Now that the kids are grown and the spouse is gone, it has been difficult for me to be "alone", but I have managed for 10 years. I didn't want to remarry just so I wouldn't be alone. I don't believe that is the purpose of a committed relationship. I also felt I needed some distance between my former relationship and a new one. . . after all, it would not be fair to the man whom I might fall in love with to still be dragging baggage around.
Does that mean I'm ready now? I don't know, but I believe I'm ready to find out without making a big mistake or hurting someone else. I prize wisdom, honesty, sacrifice that is sincere and springs from Love and not out of guilt or duty. I love warmth, genuiness, humility and laughter that comes from the soul and not derived from dark humor or someone else's dignity. I have no tolerance for those who judge others just to make themselves feel better about themselves or critisize for the same reason. I detest gossip. Does this sound like I'm some kind of perfect saint? Absolutely not! I detest these same things that may sometimes creep into my own life. My weaknesses? I can sometimes be moody. ( just being honest. . . one of my "good" traits :)) Humor is usually a quick fix for my occassional "blues". Sometimes I can be a little bit selfish. . with the "what about me?" syndrom rearing its ugly head. Usually a loving kick in the pants, from the Lord and/or friend will take care of that. . . . I love fun and romance. Romance to me is not necessarily flowers and candles. Romance is just never taking each other for granted and always being best friends. Romance is when you can laugh and find humor in not so funny situations. Ok. . . see. . . now I'm having difficulty. . because all of this is so much more than one can possibly write down. So I guess if ANY of this made ANY sense to you. . maybe we might be on the same page. . wavelength. . . or whatever it is that makes people connect.
I love witty banter and teasing, slow dancing barefoot in the living room (or anywhere), sharing the sunday news, drinking coffee and not having to say a word. I like thunderstorms, horseback riding on a crisp fall day, fishing at dawn, or sunset, in a lake, stream or on the ocean. sailing, traveling, camping. I want to learn to scuba dive, dream again, love again. Anything else you want to know. . . contact me. . even if you just want to be friends.