It took me a long time to realize that a relationship is not going to fit into my perfect mold just because my imagination surges into overdrive. But, I have finally managed to resolve that issue over time. I used to have attachment issues too, but again maturity really can shed light on stupidity. The only effect of those attachments was a tendency to hang on to good memories in a relationship and let go of the bad ones. Such memories served to have more of a devastating effect on me than they should have. Failed relationships always have a cause that can't be fixed. It is good to know when to move on. I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't do drugs, and I am not an abusive person. My weakness has always been for the opposite gender. I feel like half a man if I haven't got a woman to enjoy life with. I can make due otherwize, I had much rather not though. This man will always have a natural attraction for a woman. I sure would be happy if my life works out so that I can be a good husband for the right woman someday. The reality is, it is easy to give love; the biggest force that holds it back is the fear that it won't be returned. Fear and distrust are human sicknesses. God is the only source of love that we can be 100% sure of. I am better off if I leave matters of the heart in His hands. My judgement stinks.